Waning Moon - March 20, 2003
In Memoriam Carl J. Young
by Karl Young, Jr.
On March 20, 2003, the day after the full moon and the first day of spring,
my father's spleen and gallbladder ruptured, kicking in a raging case of
peritonitis. The Doctors gave him a one in seven hundred chance
of survival. On the same day, the U.S. began the bombing of Baghdad,
initiating the Iraq War. Due to his advanced age, my father had difficulty
understanding why the U.S. had attacked Iraq. Had he been in better health,
he would have opposed it as strongly as he had the previous war in Vietnam.
The odds the doctor gave probably consisted of made-up numbers to express
improbability. He beat the odds, dying on January 15th, 2007. I put up a
memorial web site to him at
carlyoungmemorial.net shortly
after his death. As the memorial explains, the thesis he wrote for
his theology degree was titled "The Christian Basis for Pacifism," but
he was the first minister from his seminary to enlist as a chaplain when
the U.S. entered World War II. He believed that his job was to look
to the spiritual well-being of those who needed it, not those who
agreed with him. He changed his mind as the war progressed, and lost
all reservations when his tour of duty assigned him to the care of
survivors of the concentration camp at Dacchau. He was not an absolutist
in his opposition to war, but had no sympathy for it except as a last
resort under such circumstances as the Holocaust.
In 1980, I had planned a series of poems painted on large panels. The
basic imaging would be simplified views of Lake Michigan, seen from the
parks of Milwaukee, with a horizon line dividing lake and sky at the
middle of each panel. I had been co-founder of Milwaukee's Water Street
Arts Center, and was Vice-President and co-founder of its heir, Woodland
Pattern. A one-man show of mine had been one of the first at the new
location on Locust Street, and its proportions determined the height of
the panels. The texts would be painted in letters whose size would be
small enough so readers would have to stand so close to each panel that
they could not see all of it at once, and would have to begin reading
by tilting their heads back and looking up, then bow to the horizon as
they read down the panel, incorporating their own body language into
reading the text. The series did not go beyond some sketches in the
planning stage.
My custom in the late winter - early spring of 2003 was to drive along
the shore of Lake Michigan, looking at the ever-changing colors of the
sky and water. On the night of March 20, expecting my father to be dead
within a day or two, I began composition of the text for this poem while
driving along the lake shore at night. Moonlight on waves suggested white
letters on the water portion of the panel. The nature of scrolling in
computer usage reminded me of the panels I had contemplated painted two
decades before. The reader may not bow to nature in this piece, but still
cannot see the whole picture at once, a type of metaphor for the nature
of war. I sent copies of the piece to friends via email after my father's temporary
reprieve. The war still continues after his death.
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