Child That Did Not Come by Gordon Walmsley
Gordon Walmsley, Born (1949) and raised in New Orleans, Walmsley currently resides in Copenhagen, and returns to his hometown several times each year. He was graduated from Princeton University (German Literature), and has given workshops in England, Denmark, Switzerland and the United States. Walmsley's poems have appeared in various international journals, including the Sarajevo magazine Album (in Serbo-Croatian) and YAWP: a Journal of Poetry & Art. He is the author of several books, including most recently Touchstones, a Journey Through Poems in Xenophobic Times (Salmon Publishing 2007). Walmsley also has edited and translated (from Swedish, Danish and Norwegian) Fire and Ice, an Anthology of Nine Poets from Scandinavia and the North, and is currently the editor of the Copenhagen Review, an online magazine that takes place in five languages.
No sorrow
bleeds
in vain
and no wound
is
bloodless
a child went out at night
to touch the membrane of stars
her fingers reaching just so far
weeping is always of the blood
and makes the leaves along the tree line
drip
and as for love
it is a fire full of mercy
strong enough
to set things in motion
and no heart sears
more than it can stand
and the heart is always
filling
sorrow and longing
never seem to end
yet it is through them
the mysteries of love
are deepened
What is great in a man
is how far his love will reach
whether it extends to the limits of his skin
or flows out gently with waters of empathy
and nothing is more of the Passion
than to stand in a sandy place
with a broken shard of clay in your hand
blanked to the stars
to the moon and the sun
and to the next
step
a vase that was beautiful
as anything vanishing
with leaves and twining flowers,
the motion of becoming
you cover the jagged shard with your hand
or lift it up into the light
dreaming back
the day the first brushstroke
was set
and you thought it
wondrous
with all its possibilities
If you were to ask her
how her waters moved
she might say she had become
dry as sands in winter
wakeful, sober, and honest
and that her hands had begun to
grope beneath the grains
fumbling for something smooth
and useful
and that having found it
she would sweep away the sand
brushing whiteness from a glinting mirror
and if you never asked
she might tell you
the child she was bearing
did not come
though it reached within her
for nine full months
and there was sorrow and emptiness
more than a heart could bear
and what she would never say
was that she had ranged
through veering passions, crossing
a sandy place in winter to
a place of burning ice
and almost drowning in the
thick waters of her streamings
but that her streamings were warm
at least they were warm
We rise as we must rise
heavy and full of dread
or as a butterfly or angel
delicate as froth along a beach in winter
half-frozen yet also light-
we walk across dunes with the great sea
boiling
and sometimes
the wind is so strong
it will stop you from moving.
that is the way of the northern wind
whose way is to test you
strengthen you
and bring you
to yourself
and you child that did not come
your going is a mystery
no grief can fully contain
and what you fashion in this world
is an abyss-
it is not as though
things are as they were.
things are as they were
yet now there is an empty place too
I see it as a mirror
gaping wide
penetrable
First published in Sturm und Drang: A New Orleans Anthology of Poetry & Art
(Dec 1 2009) edited by Dave Brinks and Bill Lavender